Those who know me probably agree with me when I say that I need to really get to the bottom of something before I say I understand it. I can’t just scratch the surface of a concept and then claim to know it. This is both a disadvantage and an advantage. I often hear ”fake it til you make it”. I don’t know how to do that. How can you claim to know something, when you don’t? It makes no sense to me. On the other hand, when I state that I know of something, I really do.
And understanding, for me, is one of the greatest things there is. That moment when the brain connects facts to a sudden and enlightened whole is something that makes the days brighter. In developing, I’ve found that these moments come often, if you fight for them. They also show up in unexpected places. And that’s what makes it so much fun. Let me give you an example. I’ve heard the word API so many times. I’ve read the article on Wikipedia. I could repeat the words, but I did not understand it. And then I made a tiny web app using the Reddit api, and suddenly it all made sense. It’s that wonderful feeling of ahaaaaaaaaaaa.
I’m usually not this peppy, but to understand things makes me uncharacteristically upbeat. I have a friend who pushes me towards these moments and I’m forever grateful for it. I sometimes forget what a wonderful experience it is. It actually a little like exercise. I always forget how good it feels, when really, I shouldn’t. And I hope I never stop looking for this feeling. I hope I always keep on hunting new understanding and I hope I can find every now and then.